my hero

I dedicate this to all the people in my life , who make it possible for me to rise up again when i am down , who drive me on to keep fighting ... to my heroes :)


Too alarming now to talk about
Take your pictures down and shake it out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Don't the best of them bleed it out
While the rest of them peter out
Truth or consequence, say it aloud
Use that evidence, race it around

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

who knows my hero leaving all the best
You know my hero, the one that's on

There goes my hero
Watch him as he goes
There goes my hero
He's ordinary

Gentlemen , welcome to fight club

have you guys seen the movie - fight club ... yeah , english waali ! .. this is one of my all time favourite movies ... well , my office almost , if not exactly ,,, but almost resembles a 'fight club' .

Well , lets see where the similarities start ...

The first rule of fight club is , "you do not talk about fight club" ...
Pretty true , no matter what sort of problems you are having with your boss , you are not supposed to make it public .

The second rule of fight club is , "you do not talk about fight club" ...
Dont let anyone know that you just had a heated argument with your boss yesterday , regarding anything ranging from "mujhe onsite bhejo" to "main jaldi nahi aa sakta".

Third rule , "When someone says stop , or goes limp , even if he's just faking it , the fight is over" ....
Well , if your boss gives a fake smile , but he's really determined to screw your life from the inside , then you've still got to give up the fight , even though you know , its not really over .

Fourth rule , "Only two guys a fight"...
Pretty true in our case too, cos' if your boss has singled you out for something that happened like 10 million light years ago (yeah yeah , pun intended !! ) ... still he's gonna be taking your case till you eventually disappear.

Fifth rule , "One fight at a time" ...
Not really true , everyone seems to be fighting with each other all the time ... as some geeky jerks in my team would joke about it , "multi-threading ho rahi hai" ... "hahahahhaha" . Not Funny.

Sixth rule , "No shirts , no shoes" ...
Well we can relate to this point also , when someone wants a piece of you , they just forget that they are in a place called office , and attack you like a hungry animal ... so yeah animals i.e no shirts , no shoes ... got the point ?

Seventh rule , "Fights will go on , as long as they have to"...
Pretty true , but the only twist is , no matter how good you are , or how much you work , fights will go on as long as your boss wants them to go on ...

The last rule , "This is your first night at fight club , you have to fight" ...
After some time everyone figures out , that they are being treated unfairly , and eventually everyone starts fighting .

Monday !!!

Is it just me or anyone else feels the monday morning blues ?
All the office hodge podge again , all weird kinds of news

8-30 in the morning , sleepy eyes , trying to figure out what to do
Forward mails galore to read , project related stuff in between , far and few

Same old coffee mug , same old machine in the lab
Still remember the first day , when worked seemed to be so fab !

10 months down the line , things have become monotonous
attitude has become like "yeah yeah .. whatever" , and I cant figure out , whats all the fuss ?

Project , Project ,,, this seems to be all there is to people's lives
people getting so involved in it , to the extent of ignoring their families , and consequently getting scolded by their wives :P

This ain't the way I thought work was done , Oh my god , I was so wrong
Ever since I joined up , lifes been like a never ending sad song

Hope this hectic routine ends a.s.a.p , I have better things to do you know !
Waiting for the time someone officially says "its over" , and I'll be waiting to run away ... Ready Steady ,,, go !!!

I know I sound like too much of a pessimist , but what else can I do ?
Thanks to a couple of friends here , who keep giving me the courage , to make it through ... !

So I am gonna try and chillax now , and take all of this in my stride
Step into the thin air of reality again , and upon the wings of my dreams , let my life glide

You'll never walk alone

When you walk , through a storm , hold your head up high
and don't be afraid of the dark

At the end of the storm , theres a golden sky
and the sweet silver song of the lark

Walk on through the wind , walk on through the rain

Though your dreams , may be tossed and blown apart ...

Walk on , walk on .. with hope in your heart

and You'll never walk alone

Walk on , walk on .. with hope in your heart

and You'll never walk alone

Change

why dont, you see, the way that, i see things.
is it just, the way i am, different from, the way you are.
for you, i canged myself, about me, you never gave a fuck.
self righteous, constantly, but the only thing, constant is change

where were you wise one,
when i needed inspiration
why dint you pull me when... (when i was stuck in the mud)
for you i changed myself
self righteous constantly ..

change

change your house, change your life,
change your friends change your rights
change the laws change the system
for a change you be the victim

please forgive me for what i did wrong i'm sorry you gotta go through this song
i have no love left for you, i'm dedicating this one to you
for you i changed myself about me you dint give a fuck
self righteous constantly but the only thing constant is change

change yourself thats what you said
why should i even care
why for you should i bleed
change from you is what i need

why change
why change
why change me
why do you want me to change this song

no

why


Courtesy : Joint Family's song : Change , from the album 'Hotbox'

You

As I lay thinking here , about what life could have been

About how you are the prettiest thing , I've ever seen

About the first time we met , about your innocent smile

The scent of you , drives me crazy , even after all this while


Poetry is not really my forte , no it is not

This poem might sound absurd to all you intellectuals , but just give it a thought

How would you feel , if you had been away from your love , for years

You wouldn't know how it feels , to have wept all those tears

The one that understands me , the one who is in my mind

None of you can ever know how it feels , to go through this grind


Life's really hard , but if you are with me , we'll make it through

Nothing else matters , cos' our feelings are true

Screw them who say , that long distance relationships don't work out

We've had problems and rough patches during this time , no doubt

But keep your trust in me , and I'll never let you down

Keep smiling mota , cos' you look silly when you frown :P

In the end I'd like to edit one popular song here :

Hey there Ruhi , whats it like in New Delhi city

I'm a thousand miles away , but girl tonight you look so pretty

yes you do , times square can't shine as bright as you

I swear its true

Hey there Ruhi don't you worry about the distance

I'm right there if you need me

just give this song a listen , close your eyes

Listen to my voice its my disguise , I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

Football AT work , not football AS work

About 3 weeks ago , a few good men , from an ODC far far away , had a dream in their eyes , to take part in a 5 a side football tournament . The story is as close as it can be to a modern day lagaan or something , minus the singing and the dancing ... Nobody gave us a chance of even making it to the field , at the match time , leave alone progressing through the tournament.

So the first match of the tournament beckons . Our team was called Waryurs ... as in Warriors with a deliberate spelling mistake (or maybe not deliberate ... ) to make it appear more "IN" .... !? The opposition were called ,, errr... who cares ?? (actually I have forgotten the name !) ... Our inspirational Vice-Captain ??? Samir (all pun intended :D ) gave one of those talks you hear in the movies , before the underdogs go and score a miraculous win in the final seconds of the game . Anyways none of that actually happened here . When we took to the field , we looked like a replacement of our football superstar selves in some parallel universe . No coordination , no communication ... We almost looked like we were there to make up the numbers really . Not that we didn't try hard , but all the effort was to no avail . Add to that the lovely dummies of captain marvelous , who dummied not only the opposition , but his teammates too (what a dummy !!) . We went 3 goals down , and I managed to salvage some pride by scoring a penalty . The final score read 1-3 to us . After the match , we thought that we could've done better (ofcourse , everybody does ) ... Missed chances had been the root cause of the defeat . We also needed a midfield general who could control things in the middle of the park (basketball court , actually) . Out went captain marvelous , in came Amit a.k.a Scholesy.

In the second match , Amit a.k.a Scholesy lived up to his billing as a midfield dynamo , scoring a goal in the opening minutes , with some help from the opposition (3 deflections to be precise) . We won by 1-0 , but it didn't matter if we had won by 1 goal or 10 goals , the thing is , WE WON !!!! yay !!! ... The underDOGS had released the CAT among the PIGEONS with this win.

In the third match , the underDOGS were actually the overDOGS (nonsense !!!) .. because they were facing the reservoir dogs of the tournament a.k.a Thomasz . An olympus derby to be precise . Passions running high !!! (not really !!) .. It was time for boy wonder to finally prove a point that he is more than just a penalty specialist (P.S : Am talking about myself). In the dying minutes of a hard fought match , I finally did justice to our performance . 1-0 Winners . The team that everybody thought was just there to make up the numbers , was in with a real chance to make it to the quarters .

The final match of the group was against Ball Kickers (I don't think they quite knew that this name could have a double meaning or maybe they intentionally kept this name , keeping the pun in mind) . This was the team that was scoring freely , 4 goals , 3 goals . The fiercest attack of the group v/s the meanest defence (up until that time atleast :P) . Cometh the hour , cometh the man , Samir finally silenced the critics (who ???) , with his fine long range effort . We were kicking the balls of the ball kickers , until the final minute , when insanity and frustration of living in pune finally got to me , and I started shouting "Foul !!! Foul !!!" . The ball kickers didn't stop playing and scored :( . At this point of time , I thought my teammates were gonna kick my balls .
If we had won that match we could have avoided the eventual winners of the tournament in the quarters .

The quarter final day arrives . The first match is ours (as usual , in the scorching heat) . I tried to show as many skills as I could , to scare the opposition before the match , but all my efforts proved futile . Their whole ODC came to support the team , and we had a solitary supporter showing up for the big day ! ... We felt as if Ipswich Town were playing away at San Siro (not really , but you get the point , right ?) . We lost 5-1 :'( . A solitary penalty was our only consolation from this match . After the defeat , like good sportsmen we congratulated the opposition , cos' they were marvelous during the match . We couldn't have played worse in our nightmares , than what we had played like that day.

Well that was the end of the fairytale story for us , and it was back to the ODC . Work , work and yes you guessed it right ...... work.

I aint no nice guy after all

Sometimes you just randomly hear a song , which might not be very popular and you haven't ever heard it before , but from the 1st time you hear it , you just want to keep on listening to it . Maybe its the lyrics , or maybe its the music but every time you listen to it , deep inside your heart you do a "yeah !! \m/" , or a "woo hoo !! " ... Well I also came across such a song , from my friend Vipin's collection , when I borrowed his hard disk . This song is by a band called Motorhead and features Ozzy and Slash . The thing that is so amazing about this song is that I can really relate myself to the lyrics of this song ,,, check them out for yourself ...

I ain't no nice guy after all

When I was young I was the nicest guy I knew
I thought I was the chosen one
But time went by and I found out a thing or two
My shine wore off as time wore on
I thought that I was living out the perfect life
But in the lonely hours when the truth begins to bite
I thought about the times when I turned my back & stalled

I ain't no nice guy after all

When I was young I was the only game in town
I thought I had it down for sure,
But time went by and I was lost in what I found
The reasons blurred, the way unsure
I thought that I was living life the only way
But as I saw that life was more than day to day
I turned around, I read the writing on the wall

I ain't no nice guy after all
I ain't no nice guy after all

In all the years you spend between your birth and death
You find there's lots of times you should have saved your breath
It comes as quite a shock when that trip leads to fall


I ain't no nice guy after all
I ain't no nice guy after all